Monday, November 8, 2010

17th Birthday :).




So the entire month of my birthday I did not think much of it. I've been so busy between my job, school, and 10 month old that it completely slipped my mind. If I was thinking of any birthdays it was of my daughters coming up in December. When my birthday rolled around I definitely enjoyed the day and got a brand new laptop. The next day my boyfriend came and surprised me from the Army! We spent the day together and Bella was so happy to see him and snuggled him, she loves him so much. We even got our first family picture ever & made pumpkins!He took me to Jason's Woods when Bella went to bed, my birthday is October 29th and I'm deathly scared of things so he enjoyed watching me freak out but I actually had fun too! He's coming up this Veteran's Day weekend I'm so excited!

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Today is the last day he upsets me...

Because I realized I'm the one who will have:
The job I've always dreamed of...
An amazing man to love...
My beautiful daughter...
He wants to ruin the one thing I need left to make it.
My education.
Only it's not working.
He knows I am going to make it.
The whole school knows.
& it's scaring him because now he's losing :).

Sunday, September 12, 2010

This is...


The hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. But I know I can do it for you.

Monday, May 24, 2010

When People Ask Us Who We Are...


We say "Mom" not "Teen Mom". Why? Because we deserve the same exact respect as other Mothers, I'm so sick of this stereotype it isn't even funny. How can people act like this,or even allow such unfair judgment on people? Do they have a conscience or a heart? For those of you that go to church, Mary was in my position at the same age. She got snarled at and treated like dirt no doubt, but if you read the gospel you see she is as good of a Mom as any human being can possibly try to be. But knowing who she is today in this time period would you act like that towards the Mother of God's son Jesus? You bet they wouldn't! And people try to say "Well your daughter isn't Jesus". You know what, wrong again! She may not be Jesus, but she is also a child of God as we all are, so she shouldn't be looked at as a result of something filthy. My action may have been wrong, but I am strong for making the right choice of enduring all the rude comments and opinions to give life to this beautiful little girl. Because she doesn't deserve to be treated as an option, just because of the situation she was born into. It is about as wrong as deciding what race of human is better based on their skin color. What I don't get is this: Teen Mothers put their children up for adoption. The result? Sympathy. Teen Mothers get an abortion. The result? Sympathy. I choose to keep my child and raise her, so that she knows who her Mother is and that I'll continually fight for her and love her, and my result? I get called inappropriate names. My child gets called a "bastard child" and a "mistake". Now I am not bashing those who choose adoption, it is a very beautiful thing, and people have great reasons as to why they chose that option. But honestly I knew I could pull it together to be a Mom for my child, just like the Mothers who chose adoption knew that they couldn't provide for their child. We did what was best for our children. And everybody knows there is no greater bond that a child will have like the bond between mother and child. I saw an opportunity to give her that comfort and love and went for it. I continue my education and take care of her all at once because at the end of the day seeing that smile on her face lets me know I've done everything right from here on out. You can't prove me wrong. And I hope when she grows up and sees that just because somebody did one wrong action that was a little bigger than the average one, she won't look down on that person like there an animal, but instead respect them.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Bella's opinion on Baby Food







So I guess baby cereal is out, but she digs bananas. Go figure those are like the candy bar of baby food. Definitely my daughter in that case!

Friday, May 21, 2010

Here We Go...


After over nine months of fighting and battling I feel like I can finally put the gun away life has given me and just relax for once. Everything seems to be perfect right now. Well that's total bull. Everything literally is perfect, and it feels so wrong to be able to say I'm the happiest I've ever been. I know I owe this to the man upstairs big time, who pretty much pulled me up from the bottom, in ways nobody would understand or believe. I've noticed the closer I've become to God the easier life is to handle. I still get some rainy days, no doubt about that, but I can honestly say I can bear a smile through them all. All since I leaned on Him that day at the Hospital waiting for the arrival of my daughter. But life is about to get extremely exciting.

I'm now tagging along with KMPhotography and "excited" doesn't even begin to describe how I feel right now. Two reasons. For one I've been sitting on my butt for 5 months raising my daughter. I love it, it's just that I've put aside excercise and I can't remember the last time I've went out for an event. People who know me know that sitting me down is like trying to ductape the energizer bunny to a chair. I need out. Two. I'm finally getting my foot in the door for my dream job of being a fine artist. I've been waiting 16 years for this. Even if it's not working with my paintings or sketches I'll take it. Besides, I've really found I have a thing for photography too, and that is what all the colleges wanted to see me accomplish also.